Didnt get a lick of sleep last night just layed there in bed in silence staring at the ceiling. Sounds sad and depressing i know right? Well i have too much on my plate right now i guess just crazy stressed. I need a day off to recoop but that isnt going to happen anytime soon work work work ugh thats all i ever do anymore.. I mean i have hopes and i have dreams but i guess i dont know how to talk to the right people or they just dont care enough to talk to me.. What am i filthy? I dont have all the money in the world but i work for everything i have a house to live in a car to drive in gas food and sometimes i can get a little well.. Atleast my music. But i am no less then anyone else my blood is as thick as everyones else it runs through the same veins and the same organs. Yes maybe there is something wrong with my head but judging by the world today maybe its not wrong at all. I love my life and i feel if i havent had to deal with what i have dealt with in life i would never be as strong as i am today. I just feel like i have so much to say i want to help the lost souls of this world and share that giving up is never a last resort and should never be given the time of day. I feel like i can be bigger in the world that wont stand tall ugh im rambling and im sure i could go on for days.. There is just soo much on my plate and i feel like talking here might reach someones eyes or it may not all i know is it is making talking to myself not seem like such a bad thing.