Hey guys my name is Steve, I just joined these board in hopes of getting a message and some questions across.
First off I wanted to start by saying that I am a proud technician and have been so since A.P. also a huge fan of hip hop in general.
However there is something that I feel sets me apart from most Technicians. I am openly gay. I knew who I was from a very early age and also found my love for rap before I hit grade school. As you know hip-hop is not kind on the gay community at all. The word "faggot" graces many rhymes these days and my community is hated on day in and out in my favorite genre. It is my dream to release an album one day and as you can imagine my sexual orientation is holding me back.
For many years I stayed in the closet and hid who I was and when I found tech n9ne and what being a technician meant I decided it was time to stop lying and be true to myself and fuck what anybody has to say about it. Tech taught me that being different is o.. and as long as you preach love through your life nothing is wrong with being who you are. I still find however that I am not wholly accepted in the rap community, every time I go to a strange music concert I cover up my pride flag tattoo and don't mention anything about my sexuality. I lie if asked about the opposite sex and pretend to be something I am not. This makes because Strange is such a HUGE part of my life and I feel I can't even be who I am around my fellow technicians. :( I saw a video recently on a interview with Tech and he said that he accepts my people and "you can't help who you love" this made me so happy to know my idol would be proud to call me a fan no matter who I am, but as I look over these message boards and hear what people are saying at concerts it seems that my technician family is not as accepting.
I am going to my very first VIP tech show in March in denver and I am bringing my boyfriend with me. With me it is not very obvious I am gay at first glance, but with boyfriend it is HIGHLY apparent. Now I am in no way skipping the show just because of that but I don't wanted to be hated on or possibly even hurt because of who I love. I just want to be who I am and enjoy the music I love with the man I love just as much if not more.
My question for you guys is so you accept me? If you saw me and my BF at a concert would you hate and diss on us or accept us? Should I be afraid to show my true self at a Tech show? Should I pursue my dream as a hip-hop artist?
I want you to know that being gay is NOT a choice. Like I said I knew who I was VERY early. it is how I was born and just want all aspects of my life to embrace each other. Tech and my orientation.
I know this will inspire some possible hateful comments but I would just like to know that there are other Technicians out there who accept me for who I am and are proud to have me in the tech family.
Charles Weis said:
You're not the only one, I'm openly gay as well, and I'm starting to get my boyfriend into Tech N9ne. I definitely plan on taking him with me when I go to the next Tech concert and don't give a fuck who says what. As cliche as it is, someone will always hate you for something, never let other people's ignorance get in the way of enjoying yourself whether it's at a concert, restaurant, store, sidewalk, etc. And as far as the whole faggot thing goes guys, just because there's a new connotation to the word, doesn't change it's origins. It still implies that gay or faggot is a negative term "Ohh, that's gay" isn't necessarily meant to directly put down homosexuals but by using a word that is commonly used to describe a homosexual as an insult, you can see what it would upset some. If people said "Quit being a nigger" and then said "Ohh nahh dude, I meant nigger as in douchebag and not ignorant black person" I don't think that excuse would go over so well (not to bash Delusional or anything, or to say that people still don't use the word nigger for reasons other than to put black people down). Now, I've thickened my skin to the word faggot, no matter it's use, although I do encourage people to broaden their vocabulary to find a better adjective than gay, or retarded, etc. Not that I'm not guilty of letting it slip sometimes.
STANDING OVATION! If everyone were more open minded, we definitly would be more accepting of eachother. And that is definitly one of the reasons why I love tech's work so much! It makes me sad to know that our culture teaches us to fear and run away from something we don't understand rather than have some courage and give into your curiosity in reguards to something you're not used to and don't see very often. And Stephen, I completely agree with what PeepingTomETTE2 said about being true to yourself, it's awesome that you are being true to youself and going to this concert and disregaurding the opinions of others. Even though you posted this question, you stated within it that you already planned on going. And there are quite a bit of hurtful trolling douche bags who shallowly dish out hatred to others, so it takes alot of courage to post a question like that and I commend you for it! Also in respects to what other people say on this thread, I'm all for being yourself and making your own decisions, but all the "shouting out to the world rainbow GAY POWER AND PRIDE people" ... yeah that gets on my nerves...unless you have something to prove like a protest or something.....don't act like you have something to prove.
Biggups to you...I'm usually more than not reading or soaking up info on this site vs. replying...this I felt I wanted to add to. rap wise ...there are openly admitted gay males rapping, having albums & articles in magazines. Someones ALWAYS got sumptin' to say...Talkin bout girls who are pregnant in line,while we waiting to enter Techs concert etc which are all based on what is seen...anyone who would openly bash you lets say doesn't have a broad mind...I am quite sure there are plenty of men they have come in contact that are bi or gay but they didnt know they were. These are the same people that say: I don't know any serialkillers, rapists and the list goes on ...on a broader scale yes we have came in contact w/ those types yes we know them but don't of there status, choices or stints in prison for that matter. At the end of the day ...I am the type that respects when a person is true to themselves. I am a realist...the more we all accept ourselves the less psychiatric disorderss, suicides, hate killings etc there will be. But nobody wants to confront there inner demons head on...(obviously thats a big reason out of many why I am into Tech's work)...that type of humility and gall is so understated and unrecognized. You do YOU Stephen, cause I am so serious when I say u do not want to miss out and ure sittin at the house hearin bout everybody elses fun or yrs. later regretting things for people who uultimately have no bearing on your life. Live it! -Take Care
I can't speak for anyone but myself but I have no problem with the gay community and of course Tech's music is capable of catching anybody and everybody (although it is too gangsta for an old lady bro). Hope the other techn9cians will show love.
P.S. Denver is a sick ass show and for VIP, either show up early like an hour or go late towards the end of the "hour" meet and greet. When I went VIP in Denver I got in line right when it was supposed to start and ended up being in line for like 2.5 hours.